Around My Fortieth Birthday, I Began Asking Myself Questions Such As, “Why Am I Here?”
“Do I Have A Purpose?”
Not very original but just asking them changed my life. I was longing to be a part of something bigger than myself, for someone to say their life was better because I breathe and the world a better place because I live. I wanted to matter. I wanted to make a difference. I wanted to change my world. I just didn’t know how.
Asking oneself existential questions happens in everyone’s lives at some time or another. No matter how we begin life, we all seem to end up in the same space wondering who we are, why we are here, and how to make a difference. Some have experienced it in their teens, their twenties, thirties, fifties or eighties. This longing is a part of our makeup designed by our Creator to ignite our journey of purpose no matter our age. My birthday was the catalyst for the questions of meaning.
I love birthdays, especially mine, but sometime during the months prior to my fortieth, I ran smack into a figurative brick wall. I was in a state, my mind screaming and my body confirming, “My life is half over, and I don’t have anything to show for it!”
Looking back over the first forty years of my life, there was no riveting synopsis. I had lived the first forty years in pure reaction to a whirlwind of circumstances, whipped around by whatever life or chance threw my way. Though I was extremely busy, there was nothing purposeful, intentional, or passionate about my life. I had not accumulated much in the way of meaningful accomplishments, passionate pursuits, or history-making exploits. This new awareness brought a desperate desire to have all three. So I made a decision to go in search of me and my destiny.
The journey to find the purpose of “you” is an amazing adventure. There are battles to be fought, giants to be slain, and treasures to uncover. It is a journey where logic is challenged, the ordinary becomes extraordinary, and the impossible becomes possible. By finding your purpose, lives will be changed, history will be made and prayers will be answered. It is what you were created for. Consulting your Creator is a must. Begin the search for your answers by asking the one who made you.
You may prefer sitting still and journaling that conversation. Music may help you tune into the still small voice of your Creator. There is no right or wrong way to communicate with Him. Talk to Him. You don’t have to be at your best or use fancy words. You can be blunt and painfully honest about your doubts, and even skeptical about the process, if that is how you feel. He is a great listener and He wants you to achieve your purpose on this planet even more than you do. Do you have the courage to be you?